Thursday, June 17, 2010

sometimes, life happens,,,,

have you ever been driving and have reached your destination point, only to wonder how you got there???,,,ummmm,,,yeah,,,that's how my life feels as of lately!,,,i wish i could have some rad inspirational projects for you, but ummmm, i don't!!,,sorry. It's just that I have been sooooo super busy!,,,i have not even had the ounce of mojo to get some scrapbooking done,,,nothing,,zippo, nada!!!!,,,,i haven't even taken pictures,,,now that's sad:-(,,,,my job has been more insane than ever,,,i have been getting out late every single day,,,and by the time i get home,,,im exhausted and just wanna sit on the couch and do nothing,,,,and believe you me, i have a million plus one things to do,,,and do i do them,,ummm,,,nope!!!,,,i need energy, i need a shot of something!!!!,,,,okay, so i'm gonna share something super personal for me right now, and please be nice,,because i'm having a really hard time with this,,,,,my entire life I have been this super skinny, skinny girl,,,growing up I got teased a lot for being skinny,,,,called names, the whole nine yards,,,,so growing up i would eat a lot, alot so i could gain weight,,,and nothing!!!,,,i would still be skinny,,,,it wasn't until i got married three years ago that i gained some weight and i felt good,,,(just to give you an idea, at 18 i weighed 103, at 26 when i got married i weighed 120, a year ago i weighed 135),,,,okay, so about a month ago, i went to the doctor and got weighed,,you know usual routine,,,and i weighed 152!!!!,,,and when i saw my doctor she told me i was overweight!!!!!:-(,,,im 5'7"),,,this totally and completely deppressed me,,,,i was totally self conscious and not happy with myself,,,i went home and cried to my husband and was on a bad one for a week,,,I swear, I feel like i can never win this weight battle,,i'm either too skinny or to big!!!,,,so, i decided to do something about it, and as of three weeks now, i've been on this super intense diet that has been helping me out a lot,,,i can see a difference and am starting to feel better about myself,,,i refuse to get on a scale yet,,,not until i feel it's right,,,but when i do, i will share with you my friends.,,,i'm not much of an exercise person so i will slowly build up to that,,,for now, i'm just eating suppppper healthy and riding my new bike!!!!,,,sorry to post this long post about my life, but i just want everyone to know, that this is where my life has been and why i haven't been inspired,,,but i feel that i'm coming back and i think i'm gonna come back for a full vengeance!!!!

for right now, i just wanna show you a cute pic me and my bestie took at Petco Park at the Padres game!!,,,i cannot begin to tell you how much i love this girl, and am soooo glad she is in my life and is my friend,,,we had the most amazing day/night!!!,,,it was sooo much fun!!!

and here is my brand spanking new bike!!!!,,eeeekk!!,,i cannot tell you how excited I am about this!!!,,,it took a lot of begging to my husband for me to get it,,,but he caved in and now it sits in my car daily, in case i want to take a spur of the moment ride. This past Sunday, me and my nephew went on a 10 mile bike ride,,,it was beautiful and awesome...i love that little dude!!!,,,he's six,,and didn't complain once about the long ride,,,he loved it!!!
I hope you all have a rad weekend!!!,,,tommorow I am off to VEGASSS baby!!!!,,,I am so super excited!!,,i freaking love Vegasss so much!!! Oh!,,and i joined a co-ed softball league and my first game is Sunday,,,when i get back from Vegass,,,wish me luck...i'm gonna be so tired!!

LOVE you all!!!!~nely!!!


Denise said...

Have an awesome time in Vegas! Win Big :) I've struggled with the weight thing too. Most of us have. Good for you for sticking to your plan for 3 weeks now! You go girl!! I'm at day 2, so actually, you post is inspirational. I went from 107 a year and a half ago to 147. I feel ya.

Julie Tucker-Wolek said...

Good luck with the diet!! I know its rough! I loveeeeeeeeeeeeee the bike and have fun in Vegas! :):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):)

Diana Fisher said...

Hey babes, I totally understand the weight battle. I was also small in h.s. (110), bigger in college thanks to beer and snacks (135), huge after having Nate (170 at end of pregnancy and then I stopped looking). I am 115 now and love it. I would like to be 110, but I am fine with where I am.

Hang in there, I think it's a woman thing. We've all been there!!

Love the pic of you and your ninja chickie!!!

PS: LOOOVVEEE the bike!

Carrie said...

Oh...Nely, sweetie...I love you sooo much....I am so happy that you are getting happy again!!!...and your new bike ROCKS! super cool!!!

<3 Carrie

Heidi said...

i COMPLETELY get where you are coming from. I'm glad you are on the road back to happy! VERY cool bike!

Christina said...

i don't know how i missed this post!?! i just think you are the cutest, but i know the weight struggle. balance is the key to anything and as long as you are healthy and happy it doesn't matter what the scale says.